I am a planner, plain and simple.
Lists? I love them. Checking things off those lists? It is like freaking Christmas on paper! I suppose it is because it gives me a sense of “control” and a feeling of accomplishment at the same time. Seriously, few things rival the feeling of running a straight line through numerous lines on my “to-do” list.
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I often feel as if I have wasted time if I don’t have a general plan for the day or if I do not accomplish things on my list. My mom has always said that I am most content when my planner is full and I have a million things to do. Well, that is normally true, except lately I feel like I have no margin. No energy. No time for the people I love and it is HORRIBLE.
I felt pretty convicted when the following daily devotional turned up on my desk calendar (gulp).
If there is anything being with Houston will teach me is that I can NOT plan everything. He lives much more simply and has a more “go with the flow” attitude. I could stand to learn a thing or two from that handsome fella. He lives more in the moment, and soaks up every second, where I tend to be thinking about what I have to do tomorrow and in many cases, three weekends away!
Yes, I am still going to be making lists – and checking them twice (haha). But I am also going to try to relax more. Now, in my mind, this just means being even more organized so I don’t feel obligated to spend five hours on the weekend scrubbing under my stove and cleaning the grout in my bathroom. It will be a challenge. I start “real college” on Monday and I know it is going to be some seriously hard work at a breakneck pace.
So, 2014: Plan less and enjoy life a little more. Otherwise I fear I may plan my life and forget to actually live it!
Happy New Year!